On Showing Up

Truth is - it's been a while

I haven't been showing up

Not fully - not the way Soul has been calling me to show up

Frozen

Stuck

Sitting in front of the page and nothing was coming through

Wanting to share then backing off

There were things I wanted to share but had no words for

There were things I had words for but didn't trust myself to share

So I danced it out

I burned the old thoughts and beliefs that said I'm better off not showing up

I purged the things - on all layers and levels - that no longer served me

I cleansed the lens full of dirt and grime and muck that I was trying so hard to see through

I noticed where it was sticky rather than flowing

I evaluated what I was surrounding myself with - inside and out

What's here? 

What do I want to keep? 

What do I no longer want? 

What do I desire?

What is Soul nudging me to know and remember?

The more I dropped in to what was and what I wanted

The more I felt like a caterpillar in a cocoon 

Melting, dissolving, excavating, shifting, changing

Endings

Beginnings

Destruction

Creation

And here I am

Emerging from the cocoon

A butterfly

A new evolution of Soul

I'm choosing to show up today - right now

Letting go of all the attachments to what others might think or do or say or not

There are still things I have no words for but their essence has shifted within me

Showing up

For me

For you

Allowing what wants and needs to be said

What are you metamorphosing in, as and through?