Surrender

there may be a point in life where things just aren't going your way

when everything feels hard, painful, and doubtful

when you're questioning the universe "why am I here?"

when things feel so constricted, limited, anxious

you feel there is no where else to go

like you're throwing spaghetti at the wall

hoping something nourishing and nurturing will come through

and getting little in return

then there comes a point when you stop fighting against it

and just sit in the muck of it all

noticing what all this is here to show you

noticing what's ready to die and be let go of

noticing what you're being called to speak to and stand for

acknowledging the conditioning from childhood

that had us doubt our self-worth, value, skills, abilities

that taught us that asking for what we wanted and needed comes with consequences and judgments

reviewing the encodings from society

that success looks a certain way

that degrees and certifications are more important than life experiences

that the 9-5 40+ hour work week is more important than our health and wellbeing

that we can only make and receive money in certain ways and forms

Sometimes we unknowingly choose the experience of having everything fall apart

to see the patterns and loops that we've been unconsciously running in our lives

to question who we are in this moment and who we desire to be

to reflect on what we really want and need to feel nourished and supported

there is a point when we stop fighting against ourselves

and see what we've been weighing ourselves down with

the thoughts, the doubts, the fears, the judgments, the insecurities

and we surrender

to the breaking, the shattering, the death of who we are currently being

so that we can see, recognize, and choose a new way of being

where we choose and acknowledge who we want to truly be in the world

where we decide the impact and value that we share with the world

where we say the things that we've been holding back on saying

where we take the inspired actions of the next tiny step forward

into our Truth and Desires

so what are you now surrendering into?